
Poetry
Beauty
If I do not see your beauty
Is there none there to be found
Have I succumbed to misdirection
Lying face down on the ground
If I do not see your beauty
Am I blinded by a loss
That supersedes a gentle nature
To leave a heavy bearing cross
If I do not see your beauty
And I choose to close my eyes
Am I a victim of myself
And all the tears I’ve never dried
If I do not see your beauty
Perhaps I do not see at all
For you’re a masterpiece creation
Serving naught but to enthral
Courage
Do you think you could ever love a woman
As much as you love your god
Forgive my audacity
I have never been one for conformity
And the question it just presents itself to me
And I must entertain it
It cannot go ignored
I cannot pretend it isn’t there
Tell me something, my dear friend
Do you think my intrusion unfair?
And if this be the case
Do you think that I enjoy
Just lying in my bed
And my brain constantly pulling apart
Everything we said
The curse of an analytical mind
Warped I think you once said
Are you too of this kind?
No, I believe you have the ability
To shut out all you do not wish to see
After all, isn’t this the mode of conduct
You employed when discarding me
Let us reflect the saying
Knowing only through experience
Or turning a blind eye
Taking a safety curtain, surrounding yourself
With this invisible cloak
Shunning the question why
If you do not see what is happening to another
And it is not happening to you
You can say you had no idea
And this fact it will be true
Does that not make you the same then
As all the great men you deplore
Or you think yourself some kind of saint
And pray for something more
You need things to be calmer
Where’s your courage to face your core
To take things out, examine what you have done
Or I have pushed you to your limits
Oh little one
You abhor hate
And yet you propel it
How can a man be so ignorant?
Amidst his obvious intellect
You have no idea in this world
How it is to drive another insane
But let me tell you something, darling friend
It starts when you dish out pain
Pain stored for aeons inside your very soul
Pain that has been inflicted upon you
And you think you can control
But control it you do not
It waits behind your walls of steel
And it explodes in misdirection
When your heart begins to feel
Every emotion that once pained you
And you locked away so tight
The ones that come to haunt you
When you toss and turn at night
And you are thankful for the daylight
When you can resume the very form
You have spent many years perfecting
Until it has become the norm
But buried deep emotion
You forgot it lost from sight
And when it swells and overwhelms you
You cannot tell wrong from right
You find yourself in action
That betrays your moral code
You just cannot help the feelings
That your true self still unfolds
So quickly employ your friend suppression
On everything it is you feel
You tell yourself moments of weakness
Contributed to false ideals
You turn to reliable logic
Another good friend in the past
You bring all things back together
Under your heavy laden cast
And with normality restored
And tranquillity regained
You bury once again these feelings
That have stemmed from deeper pain
It is all that you can handle
The truth about oneself is hard to face
And you go back to your routine
Another funeral of disgrace
And everything that we have been through
Not really knowing each other at all
Has given me another scar
And broke my heart and built more walls
It is this my darling friend
That opens hatred’s door
The very hatred you condemn
The hatred you ignore
And so I take you back to the question posed
At the start of this sad rhyme
And now I ask you yet another
Do you not think courage should have its time?
Dumbfounded
There is an expression I know
Dumbfounded by truth
I remember that night
In your fountainless youth
The present you gave
Rendered silent of mouth
I saw all of you then
I had figured you out
I remained stupefied
By your action confounded
I knew not what to say
Your gift my speech bounded
As we sat by a candle
And you took both my hands
I knew not what to do
Could not make my demands
There was conflict and longing
And argument placed
There was tension and
Questions my heart could not face
There were moments I cherished
And laughter between
But the truth that dumbfounded
Nowhere to be seen
Finding Love
There are thousands of voices
All speaking at once
So loud I can’t hear myself say:
‘Look at the sky
This is where you will find
A love to carry you through your day
There are thousands of lies
All lying at once
So truth shall not have any say
But look at the stars
This is where you will find
A beauty that shows you the way
There are thousands of tears
All crying at once
So love shall be kept at bay
But look at the oceans
This is where you will find
The tears that are cast away
Seen
Where is your heart, why don't you show it
Why keep it hidden from me
Why hold sadness, where does it come from
Why can't you set yourself free
Show me a smile, show me some love now
I see it in you so clear
Though you keep it hidden, behind stone and water
Indifference and reality
I see a person overflowing with
A love they're trying to contain
Preventing a downfall, a breaking of safety
They've built to shut out their pain
But softness still showing though it's un-beknowing
And my heart is touched just the same
And now can I tell you, through a mirror I see you
Reflection has shown me your name
Honesty
You do not have to be honest with me
You do not have to write pages of script
Or find fanciful ways of expressing
Your innermost thoughts
You do not have to share
You do not have to give anything to me
Nothing at all
I accept who you are in this moment
And yes there is much I do not know
But there is also much I do
And so I tell you this
You do not have to be honest with me
But for my love of you
I ask you to be
Honest with yourself
Do not listen to this fiendish character
Perched upon your shoulder
Chattering incessantly
Telling you what you need to hear
To soothe your darkest thoughts
Do not fool yourself
You are worth so much more
And what are your prayers for
If not to listen to your spirit
To enlighten you and make you whole
Whatever name you or I choose
How ever you place your body
I lay mine on the waters of the ocean
With my arms outstretched
And face the skies of heaven
All this serves one purpose
There are angels and we must call to them
To dispel the mythical figure
Who carries the seeds of fear in its wake
And serves to destroy
Everything that is good and true
Do not be honest with me
I am no one in your world
But for my love of you
I tell you now
Be honest with yourself
And call to your god to
Give you the courage to be who you are
For you must know
That this is who he wants you to be
You must know this
I have heard it spoken from your mouth
Even if it was unclear to you
If only I could whisper in your ear
Each night before sleep takes you
I would say
Be honest with yourself
And it will all become clear
Idea
I do not like the idea
Of loving the idea of you
It is you, is it not
That I love
Not in love with ideas thereof
Or you in my imagination
Whom I will create
What you will be
Is pleasing to me
It cannot be this idea I seek
For you try me
You make me feel weak
No not the idea of you
But all that I saw and I knew
And I felt
Yes look there is it
Not in my mind
A feeling, no notion to grind
A knowing and comfortable, nice
Not ideas that make me think twice
A feeling I worry I’ll lose
If I imagine ideas of you
When I long for your presence to hold
And I miss you and lie in the cold
Of rejection and fright
Then all I am left with, in slight
Are ideas that run through my mind
To keep what I feel in this bind
To feed me and keep you alive
In absence, ideas survive
And outlines of moments we knew
Become an idea of you