Poetry

Beauty

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If I do not see your beauty

Is there none there to be found

Have I succumbed to misdirection

Lying face down on the ground

 

If I do not see your beauty

Am I blinded by a loss

That supersedes a gentle nature

To leave a heavy bearing cross

 

If I do not see your beauty

And I choose to close my eyes

Am I a victim of myself

And all the tears I’ve never dried

 

If I do not see your beauty

Perhaps I do not see at all

For you’re a masterpiece creation

Serving naught but to enthral

Courage

 

Do you think you could ever love a woman

As much as you love your god

Forgive my audacity

I have never been one for conformity

And the question it just presents itself to me

And I must entertain it

It cannot go ignored

I cannot pretend it isn’t there

Tell me something, my dear friend

Do you think my intrusion unfair?

 

And if this be the case

 

Do you think that I enjoy

Just lying in my bed

And my brain constantly pulling apart

Everything we said

The curse of an analytical mind

Warped I think you once said

Are you too of this kind?

 

No, I believe you have the ability

To shut out all you do not wish to see

After all, isn’t this the mode of conduct

You employed when discarding me

Let us reflect the saying

Knowing only through experience

Or turning a blind eye

Taking a safety curtain, surrounding yourself

With this invisible cloak

Shunning the question why

 

If you do not see what is happening to another

And it is not happening to you

You can say you had no idea

And this fact it will be true

 

Does that not make you the same then

As all the great men you deplore

Or you think yourself some kind of saint

And pray for something more

You need things to be calmer

Where’s your courage to face your core

To take things out, examine what you have done

Or I have pushed you to your limits

Oh little one

 

You abhor hate

And yet you propel it

How can a man be so ignorant?

Amidst his obvious intellect

 

You have no idea in this world

How it is to drive another insane

But let me tell you something, darling friend

It starts when you dish out pain

Pain stored for aeons inside your very soul

Pain that has been inflicted upon you

And you think you can control

 

But control it you do not

It waits behind your walls of steel

And it explodes in misdirection

When your heart begins to feel

Every emotion that once pained you

And you locked away so tight

The ones that come to haunt you

When you toss and turn at night

And you are thankful for the daylight

When you can resume the very form

You have spent many years perfecting

Until it has become the norm

 

But buried deep emotion

You forgot it lost from sight

And when it swells and overwhelms you

You cannot tell wrong from right

You find yourself in action

That betrays your moral code

You just cannot help the feelings

That your true self still unfolds

 

So quickly employ your friend suppression

On everything it is you feel

You tell yourself moments of weakness

Contributed to false ideals

You turn to reliable logic

Another good friend in the past

You bring all things back together

Under your heavy laden cast

 

And with normality restored

And tranquillity regained

You bury once again these feelings

That have stemmed from deeper pain

It is all that you can handle

The truth about oneself is hard to face

And you go back to your routine

Another funeral of disgrace

 

And everything that we have been through

Not really knowing each other at all

Has given me another scar

And broke my heart and built more walls

It is this my darling friend

That opens hatred’s door

The very hatred you condemn

The hatred you ignore

And so I take you back to the question posed

At the start of this sad rhyme

And now I ask you yet another

Do you not think courage should have its time?

Dumbfounded

 

There is an expression I know

Dumbfounded by truth

I remember that night

In your fountainless youth

The present you gave

Rendered silent of mouth

I saw all of you then

I had figured you out

I remained stupefied

By your action confounded

I knew not what to say

Your gift my speech bounded

As we sat by a candle

And you took both my hands

I knew not what to do

Could not make my demands

There was conflict and longing

And argument placed

There was tension and

Questions my heart could not face

There were moments I cherished

And laughter between

But the truth that dumbfounded

Nowhere to be seen

Finding Love

 

There are thousands of voices

All speaking at once

So loud I can’t hear myself say:

‘Look at the sky

This is where you will find

A love to carry you through your day

 

There are thousands of lies

All lying at once

So truth shall not have any say

But look at the stars

This is where you will find

A beauty that shows you the way

 

There are thousands of tears

All crying at once

So love shall be kept at bay

But look at the oceans

This is where you will find

The tears that are cast away

Seen

 

Where is your heart, why don't you show it
Why keep it hidden from me
Why hold sadness, where does it come from
Why can't you set yourself free

Show me a smile, show me some love now
I see it in you so clear
Though you keep it hidden, behind stone and water
Indifference and reality

I see a person overflowing with
A love they're trying to contain
Preventing a downfall, a breaking of safety
They've built to shut out their pain

But softness still showing though it's un-beknowing
And my heart is touched just the same

And now can I tell you, through a mirror I see you
Reflection has shown me your name

Honesty

 

You do not have to be honest with me

You do not have to write pages of script

Or find fanciful ways of expressing

Your innermost thoughts

You do not have to share

You do not have to give anything to me

Nothing at all

I accept who you are in this moment

And yes there is much I do not know

But there is also much I do

And so I tell you this

You do not have to be honest with me

But for my love of you

I ask you to be

Honest with yourself

Do not listen to this fiendish character

Perched upon your shoulder

Chattering incessantly

Telling you what you need to hear

To soothe your darkest thoughts

Do not fool yourself

You are worth so much more

And what are your prayers for

If not to listen to your spirit

To enlighten you and make you whole

Whatever name you or I choose

 

How ever you place your body

I lay mine on the waters of the ocean

With my arms outstretched

And face the skies of heaven

All this serves one purpose

There are angels and we must call to them

To dispel the mythical figure

Who carries the seeds of fear in its wake

And serves to destroy

Everything that is good and true

Do not be honest with me

I am no one in your world

But for my love of you

I tell you now

Be honest with yourself

And call to your god to

Give you the courage to be who you are

For you must know

That this is who he wants you to be

You must know this

I have heard it spoken from your mouth

Even if it was unclear to you

If only I could whisper in your ear

Each night before sleep takes you

I would say

Be honest with yourself

And it will all become clear

 

 

 

Idea

 

I do not like the idea

Of loving the idea of you

It is you, is it not

That I love

Not in love with ideas thereof

Or you in my imagination

Whom I will create

What you will be

Is pleasing to me

It cannot be this idea I seek

For you try me

You make me feel weak

No not the idea of you

But all that I saw and I knew

And I felt

Yes look there is it

Not in my mind

A feeling, no notion to grind

A knowing and comfortable, nice

Not ideas that make me think twice

A feeling I worry I’ll lose

If I imagine ideas of you

When I long for your presence to hold

And I miss you and lie in the cold

Of rejection and fright

Then all I am left with, in slight

Are ideas that run through my mind

To keep what I feel in this bind

To feed me and keep you alive

In absence, ideas survive

And outlines of moments we knew

Become an idea of you